Why do our flaws define us? Why does what we do wrong reflect who we are? And why do honest people get the blame an become what they are by the flaws in their lives? Whey do we sin? Why do fall away from faith? And it only gets harder as the years go on and we grow up. I pray that someday I'm not where she was tonight. I pray that I will be strong enough, that my decisions are right and that I'll always be stronger than the sins that face me.
Why does faith have to be such a struggle? Faith in another person, in God, in love? Why can't it be easy, why can't we have it and never let it go? Why is it so hard to be talked out of it or lose it after one small incident? But on the other hand, it can be brought back at any moment, it could bring you back to the life you've always wanted and restore every bit of doubt to faith again.
When do our flaws control us? When do they become who we are? When does sitting up in the middle night missing him become reality for when he's here? God, I miss him.
Somehow though, I'll fall asleep tonight dreaming of his arms aroundd me and holding me tight. He is my strength, my faith, my devotion and in him, my flaws found away (hopefully.) God I miss him and I just want him back here holding me tight and restoring every bit of faith that I have lost.
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