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I feel at this moment in time that I am finally whole, that I am finally finding out who I am and learning more about life as each new day passes. Life for me is white Christmas trees with Wal-Mart ornaments, it's an Arab memory of sand and a world I used to know and love, it's that kiss on the forehead and a tally of kisses along side his drawing on yellow legal pads, it's watching my favorite show and wanting to watch it over and over again. Life is having time to write with nothing else on my mind, it's watching the rain outside but being safe and warm indoors, it's making my own decisions, it's cooking a brilliant meal, it's entertaining, it's a cosmo when I need to relax, it's my favorite song soaring from the speakers, it's Sex and the City when I really need it, it's reading a magazine, it's designing a project I really enjoy. LIfe is cookies and dark chocolate m and m's, and bringing the love of my life to my family gatherings. It's knowing he's the one, it's knowing with him I am never afraid, with him I am never alone. Life is being gathered up in blankets, it's helping someone you know really needed it, it's a long conversation with a dear friend, it's looking ahead and seeing myself in Paris, London, Barcelona, Madrid, Morocco. It's knowing someday, I'll be a woman that changes someone's life, knowing that I have goals and dreams and that I will succeed in them all. It's pictures and photographs that he takes that take my breath away, it's finding a way of life that is all our own, it's that one kiss before I go to bed and laying on his chest. Life is creating my own way, it's about faith and love, trust and courage. Life is about paving my own journey and learning along the way how to do it. It's about learning to trust me, learning who I am and accepting it. It's about finding my own reasons for living and learning how get to where I want to be and letting me make my own mistakes. It's about talking to people and learning, it's about falling and getting back up again. It's about a great cup of coffee and a winning hand of hold 'em. Life is about mistakes, and learning from them. It's about love and learning about it to make it better. Life is about moving on when you need to and holding on when nothing else makes sense. Life is about falling into a place, and then growing and finding a new place to fit into. LIfe for me is moving around, not settling into routine, not settling into the stereotype. Life is about finding colors in the earth, having a day just to paint some random wall, it's about doing good will and hoping for the future. It's about finding the love of your life and learning how to love, it's about finding twenty minutes out of the day and learning to sit and relax when you have a million things going on. It's about a risk you take, not knowing how it will be approached. It's about life, it's about faith, it's about love. Life is about living, about loving yourself and then others, it's about finding those few people that love you unconditionally and then branching out and finding out how far you can reach. It's about finding out who you are and then embracing all the world has to offer.