Here and Now

For the first time a long time, I suddenly feel a sense of calm, as if I have done all I can do in this drama within my family and I've tried to help how I can. And the one thing that I have held on to this whole time, is that ring on my finger, that ring that promises loyalty and trust, that ring that promises to be a living reminder of who I am and that one person that loves me.

For the first time since I received my beautiful promise ring from the one person that steals my heart everyday, I honestly know in my heart that what that ring represents, is more than I ever could hope for. And when my day is getting a little bit harder, all I have to do is look down at my finger and and that small diamond in the center of the band and know that no matter what happens, at the end of the day, I get to go home to him and fall in love all over again.

I am in no hurry to get married, and while many around me seem to be pushing toward that all the time, I am quite content with my promise and with the way my life is right now. I am too young to get married, and too stubborn to give up my independence just yet. And while in a few years I may feel quite differently, I am in no hurry to rush that part of my life. I have found him, I know that for sure and I know that I will walk down the aisle to meet him at the other end, but a few years won't change that.

I have found a beauty in waiting and in keeping this promise just a little bit longer. For me, for now, my promise is more than enough. Life is just beginning for me and my love is strong enough to hold on for a few more years. The truth is, I could wait my whole life and be fine with how it is now, being loved in the purest form, being loved for who I am, and with the trust and loyalty and love he gives me every single day.