Stepping Stones

Sometimes life throws things at us, whether it the loss of two pets within a few short months' time or major life decisions that we thought we were ready for but weren't. It gives us challenges that we know we can handle, even though we might feel too broken to move on. I am a turning point in my life right now. Making choices that will change my life, my relationships and my future career. And with some sad news coming my way today, suddenly it all seems so much in perspective.

Sometimes I wonder what's going to happen in the next few years, with Nick and I going our seperate ways for the first time in 4 years, while trying to stay together. With my career beginning and the choices I will make on my own for the first time in my life, having my own money, my own success and my own failures, and all the things that I love about my life are about to change. All the little things we take for granted will soon be different and all the things that we always thought we'd have forever, will soon be gone.

It makes me think so much about how much my life has already changed in the past four years and how much it will change even more. And I guess that helps, it makes me understand even more, that what's important will stay in my life and what's not, will be gone. It makes me realize that the little moments matter more than anyone will ever tell you they do and that I will suddenly be on my own again, something that I haven't done in four years. It makes me realize how important family is and how important it is to remember those that have gone before us, and to follow on their journies.

Life is a full of stepping stones and this one that's coming is the biggest one I've stepped onto so far. This one that's coming, so close ahead, is one that will challenge me and make me a better person, it will push me farther and it will make me choose what I want and what I don't in my life. And that's it, this next stepping stone, is my life, no one else's this time, my own chance to change the world, to make the most of myself and to do it all on my own.

So today, as sad news is ciculating through my family, please think of me from time to time as I begin to step forward to the next stepping stone in my life as it will mold my years to come.