You know that feeling when you feel like someone understands you? When suddenly they get everything you mean, when you can sit down with that person and talk and know that you can trust them and tell them anything and everything? Well I had that. I used to anyways.
He would listen. He would laugh and support me. He was the first best friend I had up here. The guy I could tell anything to and that I trusted more than any other friend I'd had in the past. He was the first one to know me as who I am up here, who I really am. He was the friend that I felt like would protect me. The friend that would be there whenever I needed him. He was the guy that would stand up for me, even though he'd poke fun at me when others were around. Inside, he always made sure I was okay. And I knew that, he knew that, we always had an understanding about that. I miss that.
It's hard when friends go away. When distance becomes an issue. It seems like for me, that's a repeating factor in my life. Girl moves away from best friends, moves half way around the world. Girl moves away again, leaves all behind again. Girl's best friend moves even farther away than she already is. Girl then meets new best friend and moves to a different school as does he. IT sucks to tell you the truth.
Maybe I'm not meant to have that friendship that you call up the other person and just hit up a movie or go to dinner or shopping or what not. Life's too busy I guess. It's crap if you ask me. We all just act too busy or put things off.
Anyways, I miss him but I'm afraid to admit it I guess. I'm safe with him, I'm myself with him and I'm at ease with him. I miss the best friend I used to have. Life was so much simpler a year ago.
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