too late

I never thought my life would be where it is, I never thought that I'd be fighting these battles so young, so soon. My whole life all I ever have wanted was someone to listen, no one in my entire life has just listened to me, without judgement or opinion. All I ever wanted was someone to hold me at the end of the day without arguments or interruptions. I feel like that's all we are anymore, is arguments and interruptions. What happened to you? And maybe it's my fault too, maybe we're just not meant for this, maybe I failed you.

I have no strength left anymore, and it feels like I've been running for years on end with no break to breathe. I feel like nothing is easy and it's a struggle to smile at the end of the day. And here tonight I lay here on my own and while I should be sleeping after a long and exhausting day, I am here sitting up alone in the dark writing this, because there is no one else to talk to anymore except this computer screen who can't respond.

Life shouldn't be this hard this soon, there should be more moments of just smiling, more moments of just holding me without a word, moments that you don't need to argue with me, moments that just happen. Everything seems so forced anymore.

Why couldn't you have just listened and tried to understand. I'm tired of the excuses... I'm tired of it all.