Sometimes I wonder where I'd be if I'd chosen a different path, or if my parents had chosen a different choice. Sometimes I wonder who I'd be if I had grown up differently and what life I'd have if just one small detail had been different. And especially lately, I'm wondering where I'm headed. I'm wondering what will fill this void in my heart, and if I'll ever get to fulfill all those dreams I have in my head and in my heart. I'm wondering where I'll be in 5 years, in 10?
Sometimes I just want to hop on the next plane, no matter where it's headed, just to have a change of scenery for a while, a chance for exploration and filling my heart with dreams. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be strong enough to follow my heart to its limits, sometimes I wish I wouldn't listen so closely to what people want from me, but rather, fulfill what I want for myself.
Sometimes I wonder where I'd be if 10 years ago, I'd chosen to be a different person, if 4 years ago I had chosen a different school, and now here I am, about to make more life changing decisions and I can only wonder where I'll be in a month, in a year, in 5 or 10. And so in my heart, as I search to fill the void, I can only hope that in the years to come, some part of me will be the person I hope to be and find what's really out there for me.
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