Where I belong

My life is about moments when I have no idea where I'll be next. It's about knowing I'll only be somewhere for a few years, and then my restlessness will kick in. It's about holding on to the desert, and knowing I will return someday. My life is about knowing love will define me, it's about seeing my oldest friends and feeling comforted. It's about remembering what it felt like to have the sand against my skin and watching the palm trees sway in the desert wind. It's about family and knowing they will always be there, it's about friends that make you laugh. My life is about making decisions on my own and making them only for me, no one else. It's about making my own money and moving on. It's about outgrowing something and moving on to something else. My life is about cosmopolitans and dark chocolate, it's about movies that I could watch over and over again. My life is about lunch out with friends and a dinner at home. It's about balconies with views over the harbor, and embraces with people that make you feel real. It's about seeing someone you haven't seen in 12 years and feeling right at home with them. It's about feelings you have for someone when you're not sure if they feel the same way, it's about not knowing where I'll be in 2 years, in 5 or in 10. It's about watching family fall apart and then come back together someday, it's about a network of connections all over the world. It's about mornings in Hawaii and weekends in Portland. It's about being proud and it's about holding on to my faith when nothing else makes sense. It's about moments when something is so beautiful you don't think you could ever let it go, and it's about writing when I don't know what else to do.

My life is about first loves and lasting moments. It's about finding love in all the places I least expect. It's about drinks with friends and blankets on the couch. It's about moments that you never thought would happen and pink suitcases. It's about pink watches and the Eiffel tower, Morrocco and Cairo. It's about Ras Tanura, Saudi Arabia and the smell of sweet bread cooking in the outdoor ovens. My life is about never making plans and knowing that everything will work out for a reason. Its about waiting to see where I'll be and living it to the fullest. It's about knowing that someday I'll be standing in the desert again and I'll smile, knowing that that's where I truly belong.