Alive

A year ago, I never thought I'd be here, back in this beautiful rainy city, back at home, new car, new chapter, and all together, just feeling back to being me. So much has changed in a year, a lot of good and a lot of things that have challenged me. So much has shown me about life, about love, about myself and here I sit, in my home, in my city, looking out at the pouring Portland rain and I can't help but smile because I am myself again, I know who I am here, and I am building a life, a home, and I am becoming more of the person I've always wanted to be. Life is moving forward and I am finally moving with it again and I can't wait for these next few months to settle and for life to just slow down again, for the fall to begin, for the leaves to change, and for the rain to fall.

I feel most like myself when the weather starts to change, when the leaves start to change, when the rain starts to flood the beautiful cobblestone streets... this time of year is when my life comes full circle, when I feel the most alive, and when everything looks the most beautiful. Here's the start of fall, to these next few life changing months... when my heart is truly alive.