Hope

I think there are some things that just have to happen in order for you to open your eyes, in order for you to realize that it's time to change, time to make things better, time to move forward. The last few weeks haven't been easy, or soothing or peaceful, but they have been eye-opening, and they have shown me that people can change, that relationships can grow, and that love really does come through for you when you need it. Somehow we are getting back to where we used to be, and somehow I feel a little bit like that college girl back then, a little bit like the girl that was savoring all those firsts, all those amazing moments that love showed me a new life.

I have fought a lot within myself about this next chapter in my life, and there have been tears and thoughts and journals and moments alone just wondering if marriage is really meant for me, wondering if I'm cut out to be a wife, wondering if I wanted it. And if I've learned anything these past few days, it's that it is something that I want, something that I believe in and something that I want with you, just you.

There are always going to be moments in life that get to be too much, moments where we think we can't make it anymore, but I have seen a new part of you this week, and I have seen us try to get back to where we used to be and just knowing that it's possible, that people can change if they want to, that relationships can move forward, that gives me the hope I need for this next part of our lives.