For a Reason

I've been thinking a lot about life lately, and it seems like the older I get, life gets even more real and the definity of life is becoming more of constant in my mind. Growing up we feel invincible, we never think about losing those that we love and those are a part of our lives, we're just so used to it, we're just so used to taking them for granted. And I've found myself gradually thinking more and more about the next chapter in my life, I turn 24 in a couple weeks and I have to realistically see that in the next decade I could lose people that are very close to me, grandparents, family members and I really don't know how I'll do it or how I'll pull through when those days come.

I'm in a different now now than I was in college, than I was as a kid. And while I'm glad for it, I also know that I grew up very naive and I think that's a reason why I feel so much like this now. I've never had to deal with a loss very close to me and I don't know if I'll ever have the strength for that. All I can do for now I guess is to appreciate the time I have, the time with those closest to me and the love that I have in my life. All I can do is to breath, pray and have faith, all I can do is dream.

While the real world may be getting more and more real as this next chapter of my life begins, I can smile knowing that I am so blessed and I will live each day knowing that and believing that we are all meant for a purpose, and every single thing, no matter how insignificant happens for a reason.