bad morning

I hate the rain today and I hate hating the rain!!! bad morning.............................

you have to believe

while lying in the dark,
there shines an everlasting light up above,
a star that is guiding my life,
that is showing me where to go.
i'm glad it's guiding me where i am right now,
it's perfect on my path at the moment,
thank the Lord for that.
and i've learned by this path i'm on,
that no matter how far you are in the tunnel,
when you can't see light anymore out of either end,
you have to have faith that it will work out.
you have to know and believe that you'll find the light,
and that it will all work out,
just like it did for me.

She Needs Her Own Life

Does anybody hear me when I scream? I am growing up, can't she see that? She needs her own life, she needs something that she's passionate about. Instead of living through him, instead of living through me. Does anybody hear her except me? She's struggling, she's unsure, she's someone I love but I can see how she's living in the past, she's hurting inside but will not admit it. She nees her own life, she needs to move on from that past, from those years of hell that are hindering her. Move on my dear aunt, move on....

I Know Why

I am inspired by so much these days, so much is opening up my eyes to the glorious world around me. The stars are shining brighter through the clouds than perhaps they ever have, the breeze is sweeter in this brilliant time of year, and the trees are lined with lights. I can't wait for Christmas, to walk downtown as the lights guide our way, and as the rain pours down upon us. This time of year is so inspiring, and this year it's even better than the last. My heart is opening, farther than it has perhaps ever opened, and I know why. I know why life is so glorious and why the world is suddenly an inspiration in itself.

Ever Again

For a moment, I could not stand not to look at you,
I hated being mad at you,
and I longed to feel you next to me.
I hate how I made you feel,
I missed how we usually are,
I'm sorry for being upset,
I could not stand that moment,
and I don't want it to be like that ever again.

..... i'm sorry and thank you ....

this dreamworld we have created

my dreams are once again a part of my heart, things that i know i'll do, that i want to share with you. this morning as i sit here looking out my window at the brilliant city, at the trees changing colors and at the sky, half clouds, half clear, there is so much for me to do in my life, in this world. i once again am not afraid to accomplish my dreams, to chase them, to go after them with all my heart and soul. there are moments when i feel like i am living a dream right now, when everything seems too perfect to be real. though i would rather live as if in a dream, rather than to have no dreams at all, living only in a reality that feels wrong. dreams are so essential to our hearts, and now i have found mine again. so i will keep on living, breathing, in this dreamworld we have created because if it wasn't as real as it is, it would just be a simple reality.

To my incredible dad... who is once again a great part of my life....

Trust Me....

The lamp light beside me is slowly fading,
but I don't need that light to guide my way,
I don't need a guide to show me where to go,
but I do need your trust,
your willingness to know that I will do the right thing.
You can trust me,
you have raised me well,
all your values are similar to mine,
all our morals close to the same.
There is no need to worry about me,
your little girl is safe,
she is in good hands, he'll be good to me,
I promise.
Don't worry, I'll always love you,
and trust you with all my heart,
I just need you to trust me,
like I trust you,
and I know you will.

WOW

you know, all i can say right now at 12 46 in the morning is......... WOW! Life could not be more brilliant...

...nothing quite like that run by the river....

There's nothing quite like a run by the river, the serenity, the peace, the simplicity. With the wind blowing against my face, my feet hitting the pavement and my eyes wandering toward the brilliant river flowing right beside me. With a cold rush of a breeze and a sprinkle of rain, that run becomes magical, beautiful, and in its simplest form it is more gorgeous than any movement could ever be. For that hour, I do not worry about what has to be done, I'm not fearful of how busy the day might be; I find myself again in those runs, listening to that music that inspires me and nothing but me and the path. I know exaclty who I am in that moment and it soothes every inch of me, that run is something that calms me, that lets me search inside myself, and that shows me how wonderful life is right now. The beauty in that place, in that movement, in that hour of my day, shows me that life is perfect at the moment and I could want nothing more.

a part of me

Who knew this city would become such a part of me, who knew I'd adjust this well? For all that fear and apprehension is gone, I feel like the city has become a part of me that will always be there, the beautiful lights, the waterfront, the gorgeous colors of the trees, the brilliant leaves falling all around me. This city has become a place that has given everything to me, how could I not love it? My life is perfect here, I have everything I've always dreamed of having. I have someone who cares, brilliant friends, family not too far away, a place that I can escape the chaos and just write, moments every day where this city just leaves me in awe at it's brilliance. This city has given me everything and more yet how can I repay her? I have become a part of it, the brilliance and the serenity of the city, it is a part of me these days and I often just look out my window, smile and think to myself, what more could I ever need in life?

*Inside Our Souls*

It is in strength that we find our weaknesses and in our losses that we find hope. Life takes things from us, some lose more than others but in the end isn't it nice to know that those that love us will come to our aid no matter what that may end up being? And petty things make us selfish, but really in the big scope of things we need only those closest to us to survive and only our strength and perserverance and faith to keep us going, to keep us living. Life will always put obstacles in our way, it is how we handle those obstacles that shows who we are, how we view the world and treat those around us, it shows our true character and who we truly are inside our souls.

*Tonight*

Tonight my world begins again, tonight the storm clouds cease to exist and the stormy seas will calm the world. Tonight all is right again and my dreams become real once again. My heart will leap and my soul will be soothed, I will never be cold again. Tonight all my hope is restored and my prayers are answered. Tonight my world begins again, my trust more whole than ever before and my reality entering a dream world as tonight moves closer. This is a dream, it's our dream. And tonight my world begins again, tonight the storm clouds cease to exist and the stormy seas will calm the world for tonight is perfect, because tonight, you return to me.

More Perfect Than a Dream

There are moments when I know my journey is already begun, times when I know I'm really living the life I'm supposed to live. And that journey is my guide, my road towards that place I'm supposed to be someday. There are moments when I don't know how I could be any happier, there are times when I don't know how life could be any better. Every day I wake up and go to bed smiling, it's like a dream, a reality that never ends and that keeps getting better each and every day that I live it. This life we're living is like a dream, it's like we've entered the gates of Heaven, living and breathing together still. I know this journey is just beginning, but I can feel it in my heart and in my soul that this is real, that this is where we are supposed to be. Something deeper belongs to us, something cherished and holy, unlike those other feelings of others. We have a deeper bond, a stronger connection than perhaps anyone else could ever have. There are moments when I can't remember ever feeling like this and there are times when I know my journey has already begun, when I know that I'm living right where I'm supposed to be. We are living a dream and capturing a reality that is even more perfect than a dream.

Where Our Souls Can Rest

As the clouds move across the sky,

And the sun is setting over the hills behind me,

I sit in my favorite spot in the world.

Here with the river in front of me,

And the sun at my back,

The sounds surround me and pull me in.

I am completely calm,

Completely tranquil in this moment.

This bench, these trees, this moment

Are engrained in my memory, in my soul,

And I can always come here to find comfort,

My soul will always be comforted here,

My sins absolved,

And my heart put back together.

Into the sky; the birds soar and the clouds

Move off into the distance,

And in a single instance,

Everything I see becomes something more,

It exists beyond this world and becomes a moment

Of the utmost sincerity,

Covered in truth,

Covered in reflection of a world that we all want,

An Eden of pure and honest construction,

And of a Heaven where our souls can rest.

My Nails Aren't Black

It's a brand new day, a beautiful morning outside and the day awaiting us to grasp it, to grab it and run, enjoy every minute of it. This morning I am refreshed, awake and ready to seize the day. Perhaps a day at the riverfront, writing my heart out or perhaps a long walk through the city, anything is possible today. The world is so gorgeous and it's only the beginning of where we can go. Today I am thrilled, life is fabulous, magnificent and holy, so I will seize the day, perhaps go to mass tonight. And by the way, don't worry, my nails aren't black after all. I am happy, content, thrilled to be alive and here, waiting for Sunday.

i don't really know what this post is...

i feel strange tonight, lonely in the city with the lights shining down around me while i feel like mine is dark. i feel like painting my nails black, i feel like going to the riverfront but it's dark, i shouldn't. i feel like writing but it's making me feel even lonlier, even stranger so perhaps i should stop for tonight though i don't want to, i love it so much, i can't help it. but the city is dampening tonight, strange somehow, not so welcoming tonight. i feel lonely longing for your voice, wishing you were here. i feel strange tonight, wondering, praying, wishing, though none of it seems to calm me tonight. it's odd the way i feel, though my writing seems to make it better somehow. i don't know, i feel strange tonight, lonely and anxious, i will hear your voice soon enough but i just miss the comfort of it today. i feel like painting my nails black, maybe i will and i guess i'll just keep on writing, it is the only thing that soothes this feeling inside.

losing my dreams and beginning again

The sound of the breeze outside is pulling toward that time of evening,
the smell of the sunset is lingering on the wind,
and I can almost taste the sounds of the sun setting over the river.
Life seems peaceful at the moment,
and the windows portray a freedom that many attempt to gain,
but few will ever find.
That peace is more than a freedom,
it is a passion, a prayer, and a moment in time where life stops,
where time begins again,
and where new dreams are realized.
The breeze outside soothes me,
it pulls me in as that sweet evening drifts toward me,
and my heart is suddenly freed from every notion of hurt,
from every tear I've ever cried,
and from all my dreams that have been lost.

*BEAUTIFULLY BROKEN*

It seems like yesterday that my world fell from the sky
It seems like yesterday I din't know how hard I could cry
It feels like tomorrow I may not get by

But I will try
I will try

Wipe the tears from my eyes
I'm beautifully broken
And I don't mind if you know it
I'm beautifully broken
And I don't care if I show it
Everyday is a new day
I'm reminded of the past
Every timet there's another storm
I know that it won't last
Every moment I'm filled with hope cause I got another chance

But I will try
I will try

Got nothing
Left to hide
Without the highs and the lows
Where would we go
Where would we go

conquering over my insecurities

trust has become an interesting issue in my life, i have trusted people completely, only to have them let me down in the end and i have kept trust from others, never letting them inside my heart. though i am finding it much easier these days to trust and that openness is conquering over my insecurities. i trust my heart these days and i have never been so honest with anyone, not even myself. i have gained back a part of my heart that i thought was lost, that trust that i kept away, locked inside my heart is now back and is conquering over my insecurities.

*i'm bitter, very bitter*

i can't believe i didn't make that list, i can't believe all i've said to you was just thrown away. it hurts me to know that's what you think of me, it makes me angry that i was pushed aside, thrown to the side as others were placed in front, when you know nothing of who they truly are. don't i mean more to you than that? obviously not, obviously i'm replaceable to you and i guess this has opened my eyes. i am angry, saddened, hurt by the words you've said to me, whether out of jealousy, rage or pure irony, saying them in the wrong times, in the wrong places, it doesn't matter anymore. can't you just be happy for us, for me? can't you just see that i am so content, the happiest i've been in many many years? can't that be enough, why do you have to put that down? and on top of that, how did i not make that list, that hurt me however innocent it began. that list was so ironic to me, that those are the ones that you treasure as friends. but let me ask you this, how many times have they been there when you've fallen? how many hours have you spent talking to them? how many times have they given up giving you advice? and how long has it been since you've actually talked to them?

no matter how far I fly or how far i fall

So here in the middle of the night, 12:00 am after another "hours long" conversation that I enjoy immensely and I lie in the silence, in the dark. I am calm, at peace with myself and those around me and feel safe with where I am in life. I don't feel like I have to choose anymore between what I feel and what I should do, I feel like I can go for it, that I can say what I feel and that I can show that when I need to. It's been a few days since I've gotten to write, life has taken over, but tonight I was reminded of something during that long conversation. I was reminded of how much I miss it, how much I should always make time to write because I love it so much. And from now on, I'm promising myself that no matter how busy I get, no matter where I am in the world, no matter how far I fly or how far I fall, I'll never stop writing and I'll always make time to write what I feel. So here in the middle of the night I am totally calm and again immersed in these words, soothing me into sleep and pushing me toward the exotic dreams in my mind.

He's smart, he'll make the right choice.

I know they're worried about him, I know they don't trust he'll make the right choices, the right decisions, that he'll be distracted and screw up. I can feel it in their voices, I can see it in their eyes. He's their son yet they have no trust that he'll be fine, no faith that whatever happens, happens. He's a good kid, he's a good guy, I have no doubt of that. I believe that he will be fine and I will always be there to help him up if he falls, to move him along if he stumbles along the way. He knows I'm there for him, he knows I can help. But I'm worried about him now, I'm scared that he'll go against them just for the hell of it, just to make them mad, to show them that he's not a kid anymore, that he's more than that. But then again in the back of my mind I know he's fine, I know it's just a girl, a girl he likes very much, a girl that he cares for, he's a good guy and he'll treat her right. And though she might very well be a distraction, I'd tell him to go for it, follow his heart, for he is growing up and he likes her, then I think he should be allowed to feel that. He's a good guy and though he is still very young, doesn't know that these choices he makes might very well change his life, I think he's smart enough to do the right thing. I know they're worried about him, but I think they're taking the wrong approach to this. I think that he needs to make his own mistakes, figure things out on his own, he'll be smart about it, he won't screw up, I do believe that, I have faith in him, the utmost faith that he'll be fine. I believe in you Jam... and if you ever need me, I'll always be here to help you start again after you fall.

here i am, 19 years old

here i am, 19 years old today, an age where i am on my own but still with many connections at home. i feel like today i am more of an adult that ever before though still young in my heart at times. but here i am, sitting with my beautiful dog maggie, in a home that has always cared for me, and though i've had many negative times in my life, the past few months being a part of that, i can't complain at all right now. i have everything i've ever wanted or needed and deep inside my heart there is no regret, no fear, no apprehension. and i used to read a few blogs written by people i knew, writing that is always negative, always unsure and i found comfort in them, knowing that someone else was an uncomfortable, unhappy as i was. but now a days, i don't enjoy them for the literary works they honestly could be, i don't find any comfort in them or any acknowledgement either, for i don't know what they are feeling anymore. i don't have any of those old familiar feelings of hurt, guilt or tragedy in my life anymore, none at the moment. life is pretty damn good and i just can't believe that i am 19 years old today, it's so unreal to me to think about that. and as i think back, this has been one of the best birthdays i can ever remember. so thank you to all of you who were a part of it, however big or small your part might have been. i appreciate each and every message, each and every gift, every thought, they truly meant so much to me, and i was truly touched that you cared enough to take the time for me. thank you; it meant the world.

the new me

i have changed, matured, grown and in that i feel the happiest i've ever been... so here are a few things about me that have changed since my last "about me" issue and i couldn't be happier of the changes:

1. i am at my strongest point, my heart is safe
2. writing is my passion, it's my favorite thing in the world
3. i love talking for hours on end, especially in the middle of the night
4. i do like short people (i had to put this haha) even though you're not that short nick :-)
5. i am completely content at the moment
6. goodbyes no longer scare me
7. i have forgiven my dad, at least started the first steps of reconciliation with him
8. i have taken advice to try and work through my issues
9. i am able to trust completley with my heart
10. the riverfront is one of my favorite places in the world
11. i dont honestly care what people think of me
12. i still could live on diet coke and pretty much do
13. dark chocolate is the best
14. i have no idea why people come to me for advice, it truly baffles me
15. i love hearing from friends i haven't heard from in years
16. i am so blessed in life, i don't know why i'm so lucky and others so needy
17. music can cure any mood i'm in
18. this has been the best birthday ever and it's not even over yet :-)
19. my friends are amazing
20. i'm so glad i became friends with all of you, because if i wouldn't have then i wouldn't be where i am right now
21. i believe there is an incredible power in words
22. my faith is my basis of life
23. i've freed some secrets of my heart recently that i've never told anyone else
24. i have a folder of writing that is titled "my own" that holds pieces of writing that few will ever read
25. if i let you read something in that folder, i trust you with all my heart
26. i love the city
27. i need to stop swearing so much
28. i hate tomatoes and onions
29. i miss my brother when i'm away
30. my mom is my best friend always
31. i don't feel lost at all anymore
32. life is random, and it's best that way
33. i will confess, i have gotten lost in the city a couple times
34. for the first time in my life, i'm not afraid to open my heart
35. today was an amazing day, thank you to all of you who were apart of it

You'd have been so proud of me tonight....

I am sitting here in this familiar bed, in a room covered in not so great of memories of hiding in the closet, writing my angry heart into words. But it does not phase me, for I can hear your voice in my head and it is calming. You'd be so proud of me tonight, I did it, I talked to him, just me and him on the ride home tonight. And it seemed like our words were that of a father and daughter again, a dad who misses his little girl and a girl who longs to be in her father's arms once again. You'd be so proud of me tonight, and it felt really good to say I was sorry, and even though we didn't say all that needs to be said, it was step 1. It started the revolution, the process toward the forgiveness we both are in desperate need of. Tonight you would have been so proud of me, I told my dad that I was sorry. I told him that I loved him, that I need him, and that I'm ready to start forgiving. You'd have been so proud and you know, the reason I did it was because I had your voice in my mind and it inspired me to start forgiving. Thank you.

*I love This City*

As the wind sweeps across my face,
and the leaves are scattered along the cobblestones,
the trees are swaying in the cool breeze,
and my heart is pounding, though not from fear,
it is anxious and longing for this beautiful city.

There is no place quite like the narrow streets,
the hustle of people as they move from one place to another,
and there that calm that sweeps all as they walk,
as each place can be characterized,
and every place can be reached on foot.

Bags across the shoulder,
music playing as they walk,
and all is soothing, all is normal.
The day has become something deeper,
a place to stop and think,
a moment to realize how lucky we are,
and a city where life is always abounding.

I love this city and every dream I've had has come true here,
every sight, every sound is what I've always hoped it would be,
and the noises, the movements are passionate,
and intimate and honest.
The city is such a soothing place to me,
I fit, I belong and I am in love with the narrow streets,
the movements, the open minds and the unknown.

I enjoy the atmosphere, the sense of not knowing exaclty where you are,
the moments of magic on every corner,
and parks and trees and cement.
I love this city, I fit, I belong
and every dream I've had, every hope, every desire,
all has come true here, which makes it even more special,
which makes this city even more brilliant.

today

it's a beautiful morning as the sky is ashen grey and the clouds are strewn around among the layers of heaven above us. and i know that today will be a brilliant day, it will be gorgeous and untouched with flaw. so enjoy the day, for there is so much to be thankful for these days....

~case

*pointing me in the right direction*

Every long lost dream has led me to you,
every thought, every hope,
every moment I've lived
has been pointing toward this direction.

It's all part of a grander plan,
I know it is, I have faith in that.
And I know that we'll work,
I know it in my heart that this is right.

The truth is easier with you somehow,
and every long lost dream that I've left behind,
are suddenly all coming back,
and pointing me in the right direction.

raised so high

i had been feeling totally out of place,
totally lost in the swirl of life,
and confused and caught up in the rush.
my heart had been scarred,
my trust had been removed,
and my dreams had all been squashed,
stepped upon by people around me in my life.

i had lost all heart, all hope,
tears clouded my vision all the time,
and in those tears i continued to hurt.
but lately i have overcome that,
lately my life is brilliant and all is heping me heal.
in the past few weeks my dreams have been revived,
my heart has been healed,
and my trust is back with more force than i've ever had before.

there's a reason for all this that has been revived,
i know what it is that has healed me,
and i'm so thankful for that reason.
and there is such a simple thing that can show you life,
there are so many words, feelings that can raise you higher
than you've ever been.
i thank God for the reason i have healed,
for i have been up and down before,
but never before have i been raised so high.

Love, Casey

I am about to do something that is very hard for me, something that needs to be done, however hard it may be. I have sat here for the last hour, listening to the music around me, contemplating what I'm to write, and staring out my window at a family moving in. Though that hour has come and gone quickly, but I don't feel it's been wasted. For I have been thinking the entire time, sitting here with the softest blanket wrapped around me, just thinking. And what I'm about to do has been a long time coming, it's something that I know I have to do and at this point right now in my life, I feel like I have the strength to do it, I feel like I have the security to do it, the support. So here it goes, I'm about to apologize to the one person in my life who I still haven't forgiven.

To my father,
I am sorry for the blame I have placed on you. I will give no excuses for you did to me, to Mom, I will only apologize from the bottom of my heart and mean it. I've gone on long enough blaming you, using you as an excuse to be unhappy, to be sad, to be fragile. But I don't need that anymore; I don't need that security, I don't need that blame to hold me. And I know that you didn't do it on purpose, I know you didn't mean to hurt me and I'm sorry for putting you through this agony. And while I wish that you would have been there during that year, I wish you would come to know me as the person I've become, I can't, won't hold that against you anymore. I'm sorry, I truly am. And I forgive you, I will use this to grow, to learn, to love. You are my dad and that will never changed, I'm sorry, please forgive me as I forgive you.

Love,
Casey

In Your Arms

I find it so brilliant that in a moment, a single moment in the millions of moments every day, our hearts can speak to us. That for that second, I am pulled away into a different world where all is safe, where in your arms I am free to be anything I want to be, I can do anything I set my mind to and in your arms I feel so safe from all that's out there in this cold and cruel world. Thank you for that comfort, it truly means the world to me.
~Casey

totally lost my concentration

So I was feeling really inspired about something as I sat here at this screen, but my thought process got a little interupted and now I have no idea what I was going to write. So I'm gonna start over and go for something totally new based somewhat on that interuption.

So there are times in life when our minds run wild and when we let our hearts decide our fate. Don't get me wrong, I'm a total romantic, but as I've gotten older I've realized that if you let your heart decide everything about your future, you'll never live as yourself. Of course the heart should lead to you where you're supposed to be but you can't base all your decisions on that in this world. Wouldn't it be nice if we could, if everytime we felt something that strong, that we just went for it, all or nothing? But in today's world, we can't do that, reality doesn't let us. And yes, we are going to get hurt either way in the end, somehow or another but we can't use the future as the present. We can't base our decisions right now on what might be in 5 or 10 years. This is now, this is all we have. And while we have to follow our hearts, and to anyone that would ask me, I'd say that you have to follow what you feel, if you don't you'll always regret it. You have to release that emotion but then again you have to stay grounded as well. It's not realistic to go totally into it, risk everything when you're not sure that it's even gonna work, that it's even going to happen. So I guess what I'm saying is that yes, your heart is the most important thing you have to express your emotions, but then again, you can't use only that to make your decision, it has to be a joint effort and reality has to fit into the situation.

The Riverfront

~i wrote this sitting on a bench at the riverfront, just watching the water and the clouds for hours. it's one of my favorite places in the world...~

There is a beauty here,
a place beyond all imagination,
beyond anything you can capture,
something beyond reality.
It becomes a moment so clear,
a place where the wind will hold you,
where the river will listen to you for hours.
It's my secret place to think,
my secret plae to capture the day,
to meet a moment between Heaven and Earth.
It presents itself in the silence,
in the moment when life becomes something more,
when my heart beats a little faster
and when suddenly the world becomes a paradise.

I love this place and it is my place to just be.
It's a place to dream, to capture my heart,
and to review my beliefs, my faith.
Here I can always find my heart,
I can always capture a moment all to myself.
There is a beauty here,
a magic that I have never known,
a place so close to Heaven it's a new dream,
and a place so real, it's a hope for me forever.

Life is Brilliant

For the last half hour or so, I have been looking back at all my posts on this blog, reading my feelings, reliving them, though I must say I had forgotten about many of the things I have written. And it amazes me once again, how much I've changed this summer, but definitely for the better. I am so much stronger, so much more open and so much more confident that things do really happen for a reason, that what I have now is truly what I do want and what is supposed to be. I saw huge changes of emotion, a letter to my father expressing my love for him, then a month later, a post that perhaps the angriest piece that I've ever written. I saw how I melt for someone this summer, how I was hurt and how I healed from that. I've read posts about myself that have no meaning in my life now and I saw how a girl grew up this summer, though at the time I was completely unaware of what was happening. Life is so interesting and it's so amazing to me how my writing can chronicle my life, how I can use it to look back on who I used to be, who I wanted to be, and who I am right now in this very moment. Life is good, it's brilliant actually.... and I am happy.

here i am

Here I am, take me with you. I want to go, I want to be a part of it. I want to be a part of your life again, in the new life you've made, I'm trying to forgive you, I'm trying to forget, slowly but ever surely. I'm moving forward with those doubts I had, I'm trying to get over it, get over how you've changed. I'm dragging those memories out and learning from them. But here I am, take me into your new life. Can I once again be your daughter, can you love me as that? Do you know how anymore? But I want to go, I want to be a part of your life again, can you fit me in to the new life you've made there? I want to be your little girl again, here I am, take me with you, and accept me for who I have become.

a storm of refuge

As I sit here, looking out my window at the beautiful skyline across my view of this lovely city, the rain is pouring down, flooding the streets with a million tears. But somehow those tears are not so negative, as we often associate the connotation of that word in our real lives. These tears are flooding this city with life and somehow, the rain outside my window captures a calm that we sometimes need for whatever reason that may be. It could be a celebration, a preparation for the next step in our lives, or perhaps just clearing your head and understanding your thoughts. And in this storm I know that I am happy in my life, that all is coming together, that the truth always needs to be told, that emotions should be let lose and acknowledged, and in those we find peace and happiness. This storm is cleansing us, keeping us sane and all at once engulfing us in what is coming next, preparing us for something that we'll remember for always.

a few simple words

My belief that all happens for a reason, for a purpose proved right again today. It's amazing what a few simple words can mean and the reaction we got from them. The meaning in those few simple words free a heart, ease the mind, and make a decision easier. I'm glad those few simple words came out right and I'm glad you were the one to hear them.

*someone tell me*

what does this mean in my heart? what is it? someone tell me, someone ask me... please, please let me know. i guess only i will understand this, i guess only i will know my secret, maybe no one will ever know except for me. but what does this mean in my heart? what is it? someone tell me, someone ask me... please, please let me know.