~constants~

Moments come and go, friends are here one day then lost and preoccupied the next. Habits collect and disappear; hobbies are there for a while and then dissolve into the seconds that we lose everyday. There are only a few constants in this life and in a world where I have known darkness, goodbye and hurt, there are only three things that are constant that will always fulfill me and that I would give anything for. If you know me at all, you know who I could not live without, the guy I fell head over heels for, the guy that completes me and the guy that makes every day worth living to the very last second. He is a part of me that will always be here in my heart and a part of me that will never fill up without him with me. He is eveything to me and my love for him could withstand anything; my heart will always long to be in his arms and in his safety. The second is my family, the ones that love me unconditionally and the people that have always been there, experienced everything with me, good and bad. They are my dad, who though we've definitely had rough patches is one of the best men I know, it is my mom who is always such an amazing woman and a great role model; my brother who is a friend no matter how cool he thinks he is; it's my aunt who is an amazing friend and always there for me; my cousin and my grandparents who are such amazing people and have a love that's stayed so strong for so long. My family will always be a big part of my life and I kknow that they will except the decisions I make, they trust me and trust I know what is right. The next constant thing in my life is my faith; my ability to know something higher is there, that prayer will get me through the toughest times in my life. It calms my deepest fears and acknoweledges my deepest threats. My faith and my prayers will always guide me through the rough patches, at least I hope it will as it always has. And finally, my writing will continue to be a part of my life. It will be a way for me to express everything I feel when I can't say it face to face. It is a way for me to put words on the paper and create an image that relates to more people than just myself. It is a passion, a love that will always be with me. There are only a few things that I know for sure will be constant in my life... a few that will stay in my heart and that will continue to capture me every single day of my life. They are passions, loves and desires, they are truths, prayers and moments between souls that will always save me. And in this world where life gets so chaotic, so threatened, we must learn to love as deeply as is possible, to value family in the deepest place in our hearts, to have something that guides us and we can hold on to when times get tough, and to have a passion that means the world to us, that lets us be who we are and be completely ourselves.