sun, clouds, rain and a depressing country song

The sun is going in and out of the clouds, a diet coke sitting next to me on the nightstand, books scattered all over my bed, my homework laying in front of me mocking me. But somehow I can't pull away from the thoughts rushing through my head and in my heart there is so much that is dying to be answered, so many questions that I want to know the answers to. And there is something about the silence here, the moments I think of you, the moments I know there is no truer love that guides me on. Watching my heart grow over the past few months and knowing that I have something that every girl dreams of, I have the guy every girl wants to have and the prince that stole my heart. And yes it hurts thinking of us being apart and about the a few months that we won't be together every day or that we won't have time to ourselves and just be how we are now, but somehow right now, right in this moment, that doesn't bother me as much becuase I have complete faith that you are the one I'm supposed to be with, you are the guy that would give anything for me, the one who is always on my mind. And I want a future with you, I want to be beside you, I want to support you and though sometimes my emotions fail me and my unsurities and insecurities pull me down, right now, I don't see us falling or failing. Everyone else can think what they want but I want you, I want us, I want it all with you. Listening to this sad country song I'm listening to about a guy that loses the girl he knows he should've been with forever, a guy who said some things that he shouldn't have and a guy who realizes he's lost the best thing that ever happened to him, I hope that never happens to us but I'm sure it won't. And love hurts, it's hard, it's commitment, it's sacrifice, it's magic when done right and everlasting when it works. Love is worth every moment of hurt, every second of being unsure, because when you know you love someone, that commitment can last a lifetime. And sometimes what we think about the most or what hurts us the most and brings tears to our eyes, those things often mean the most to us. They are the most important things in our lives and they are the things that we know we don't want to live without. I won't ever walk away from the guy you are now, from our love we have now, from what we are now. Walking away is an escape, an excuse and I want to work through whatever comes up with you. Right now, I'm not scared, because I know this song will not be us, I know the distance will not take me away from you, I don't ever want it to. So as the sun is still moving through the clouds and the rain is falling on and off, I realize to myself that the moments we have now are perhaps the most important of our lives because finding you was the most important moment in my life and everytime I kiss you, I know we're brilliant.