confused

I'm feeling so ansy at the moment, so everywhere. And as I've been thinking so much lately, I can't wait to go through school and graduate and become a proffessional. I just want my own life, my own way to do things and while I already have some of that, I want it all. I want to be able to go out and buy things with my own money and to sit at a drafting table at night with a glass of wine and music playing and just work. I want that job, that stability, that life. I want a townhouse in the pearl, a downtown apartment in Seattle with a view of the water, a townhouse in New York City, a few years living in Paris and a job at a big time design firm. I want all of this, and I know someday it will come, I just have to wait patiently.

But am I that person that will get all of this? Can I do it? Can I have faith in myself that I can do it, can everyone else have faith in me? I am an independent person, I do what I want to do and I have dreams that I'm going to follow and achieve. Is that alright, or overwhelming and where will that get me? Will those that I love the most stick with me through that, support me through that? Will my dreams be overlooked when life choices come into play and will my life revolve around always putting myself in the position of it will come or will I stand up for myself and take action? Will I be able to stand up to myself and make sure I follow my dreams?

I've had these dreams for so long and I've always thought I'd go after them, but in this world where you have to conform to those around you and do what's best for everyone instead of following your personal agendas,, will I get all of this, will I stand up and do it in order to achieve all I want to? Or will I do as I do so often,, take a backseat on what I want because someone else wants something too?