What ever happened to the world we used to know? The one where parents would always bail us out, the one when home felt like the safest place in the world, where the biggest thing on our plates was a math test at school. And I guess as we grow, we must realize that our lives only get more complicated, that life only gets harder and harder to continue living. Lately, I just miss feeling safe. I miss that feeling of knowing someone will pull me through, I miss that feeling of a safety net.
I guess I should just believe in myself as my own safety net, but for some reason lately, though I feel totally loved, I also feel a bit like falling. I am falling slowly into something I can't crawl out of alone. And as the real world is approaching so fast, and the real future is right in my reach, I can see my dreams formulating and coming true and some how I am realizing that what if when I get to that moment when it is about to come true, and he doesn't want those things too? What if I get that job offer across the country and suddenly I am alone in that dream? And of course, it's easier said than done, but what if I end up having too much to lose?
I have never been the person to give up my dreams, never the person to let down when there is something I believe in. And I will accomplish my dreams, I will chase those hopes and aspirations of mine, that is who I am. It's who I've always been.
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