Embrace

I know what it means to say goodbye and it seems sometimes that my life has been full of goodbyes. I said my first goodbyes when I was a little girl and boarded those planes not knowing when I'd see all those people in my life again. Goodbyes became for me, a part of my life, a part of growing up, a part of being alive. I have been saying goodbyes, real and forever goodbyes for a long time, and even through all this year, saying goodbye to Nick every time I fly away, and it has never gotten better. But I do believe that goodbyes have a real purpose, that we must say them to grow, that being able to change, being able to be apart and grow on your own and be able to say the goodbyes, that makes us stronger.

I am a big believer in change; I am the kind of person that needs it, that craves it, that grows restless after a while of the same thing. Sometimes I think that when people don't change, when things stay exactly as they are, that that is when we lose sight of that humanity, we lose out on things that could be learned, and we miss out on who we could become. I find it sad when people won't change anything, when their lives go on exactly the same, when their beliefs never evolved, when the lives just go on for 20 years in the same way they always have. Where can you grow in that, or find out new things about the world? Where do you find those ideas about who you are, or find out that there is more to the world than just in your back yard?

I'd like to think that humanity can grow, that we can change and evolve and make ourselves and our world better. I need to believe that, I need to see that because if that's not true, then what purpose is there for us to be here, what purpose do we have as a society, a nation, a country? We are here to make ourselves better, our world better and to make a difference. And if saying goodbyes and enduring and embracing change is how we learn and grow to be able to make that happen, then I will endure it, I will embrace it.