Watch Me Fly

I've been thinking a lot lately about everything that's changing in my life and how much change has already happened this year. My life has kind of grown up for real this year and it seems like with so much happening I am finally finding out my true passions, my new goals and dreams. 2010 is going to be a year I look back and remember as being challenging and rewarding, memory making and dream fulfilling. This is the year that I will look back and say that I got engaged, got married and fully committed myself to the young man I love more than anything, my first love and my last, a boy that I went through everything with, not without challenge or obstacle but made it through, happier and healthier. This was the year that I bought my first apartment, that I owned a property and that I ran my first design projects. This is the year that I possibly started my own business, that I went off on my own and chased that dream that I never thought I'd have. This is the year I'll have gone to Paris and London with the boy I always wanted to go with.

This year I'll stand under the Eiffel Tower again after waiting so long and smile because I think that people change, and this year, I am changing day by day, getting stronger and stronger, getting smarter and wiser, and I am finding out each and every day how much I can do, how much I believe in how things should be different, how my dreams are changing right before me as I grow and how I have new goals, new dreams, new ideas I never thought I would have. I am growing up this year, making it on my own,

I will miss this place, I will miss this balcony and my view looking down upon Honolulu, but this is just one more step forward for all those things I want to accomplish. It's one more step toward the ultimate goal, one more step toward those dreams and it's a memory that I'll always keep, a memory both good and bad, a place that taught me so much, a place that taught me about how the world really is and how much we need to fight to change it. This place is not for me, but it will always have a soft spot in my heart no matter how much I want to go home, there is something about this place that taught me so much and gave me things I couldn't have gotten anywhere else.

I'm a huge believer that things happen for a reason and I see those reasons everyday here. I know I was meant to come here, that I was meant to have this experience, to work here for this exact firm, to learn what I did. I wouldn't have gotten this experience anywhere else. I've learned that the world is waiting for me, that I am just beginning to do what I know I can and that I can make a difference because I have made a difference here, however insignificant, I can see a change here, I can see a shift.

I know that the world has so much for me yet, and I know exactly who I am and what I want to do. So in this year of change, in this moment in my life where everything is converging, here I go, get ready and watch me fly.