Fabulous World

Another long day, another evening alone, another night about to fall, another day passing, another day done. Contemplative tonight, I'm wondering about the answers to questions that I've never gotten in my life, about feelings that were never made known, moments that were never made to the most, goodbyes that never got to be said. What happens to all those moments that just get lost in the span of our lives, missed opportunities, missed loves, missed friendships that could have all been something if we would have made them into something, if we had given them time? What happens to the shuffle of moments, of people, of places? Do the relationships in our lives only exist because we gave them time to exist, because we made them into something, would all those other moments, feelings, connections have been something too if we had gone after them?

There are only so many hours in a day, and that is never enough, to live and to love and to grow and dream. There is never enough time to do all that we want to, never enough time to follow our hearts to their full extent. I guess that's the cruel beauty of life and of love, is that we can never do as much as we have the capability to.

I wonder where I would be today if I had followed my heart in a different direction at each intersection that I came to, not that I am unhappy with where I am at all, but just curious, about what might have happened, who I would have met, where I would've been, who I would've been if I had followed different dreams or different emotions. I wonder what would have come from all those emotions, all the moments that never got made into anything. All those questions that never got answered, all those feeling never made known, all those days chosen to spend a different way. But I guess that life for me is all about living your path to the best you can, following your heart where you can and loving with all that you can... I guess that that will be good enough in the long run, and the people that we did meet, the people that did become a part of our lives, the places, the moments, the feelings that we did experience, they mold who we are and for me, those in my life, those I have met, those I have loved, those places that have meant something to me, that has molded me into who I am, and I am so thankful and so blessed for being who I am, and for being shaped by this fabulous world.