... never faulter again...

You know as I sit her tonight listening to a few of my favorite songs and thinking about everything ahead of me, I am suddenly at peace. And you know, I am open to where ever life takes me and at this point who knows where that will be... And I know that my heart will be broken along the way, but if it's meant to be, then how can we fight it. Life is so intricate and so confusing at times... but as I think more about it, I think we are supposed to be asking questions, attempting to find answers, and feeling more like we are drifting away in chaos rather than knowing everything. As we grow up and learn more about ourselves and the world, I am feeling more and more scattered, unsure of the world around me, yet inside I am finally realizing that perhaps that is more of who I am and who we all should be. We are not meant to know all the answers, there is no point in living if we do, there would be no point in experiencing anything or living to experience anything. As Emile Cioran once said, "Chaos is rejecting all that you've learned and being yourself." That is exaclty what I believe we must do to survive our fears and thoughts of failure, learn to love the chaos in life, becasue without it, without those questions we have for ourselves, our futures and the world, we would never get to live life just to live. And we would be swept away in boredom and in over confidence... so learn to live with the chaos and live to try and answer those questions we are all trying to answer. For when you find those answers, and believe me you will, it will be a moment of briliance and you will never faulter again....