"Waiting to See"

For a moment, it felt like I was in a dream, like I had something to offer. But that moment is gone and the smile is gone from my face now; perhaps for a very long time it will be gone, who knows. But I feel like I'm lost, my heart sunken lower and when you see me next, I will be different. My faith has been shattered again and I only find refuge in my sunset, though I will be alone in it. I shake day and night and it is strange how feelings can come and go, be strong and then disappear at once. So now I know for sure that nothing will become of what I feel and all that you wanted, you found someplace else. I will not be the same when you see me next; for my smile will be lost and my nails will be dark, just like my heart. The truth has hurt me, but I will go on, move on. I used to believe that everything happens for a reason, and though it's hard to see, maybe that's really true. I give up trying to know why things happen... so I guess I'll just have to wait to see.