*her flaws*

Today I saw her stumble, I saw her fall and not want to get up. Her heart sank as mine did in that moment and for the first time in my life I saw her break, I saw her flaws. It seemed for a moment that she was done, that she was broken and would not get up again. Her smile faded from her face and her eyes flooded with tears, not sure if those tears were for herself or for the hurt has endured. For I'm not sure if she even knew what those tears were falling for, but the very fact that they were falling was comforting in a sickening way. For her face was pale and her eyes were full of hurt, stress, and being overworked, tired each and every day. For she has never faultered, never faded before, she has never shown how tired she is, how worried she always is. This morning she became human after eighteen years, and her flaws became even more beautiful than her superhero ways. Her heart became real and I saw for the first time her smile fade from that beautiful face. And although now she has gone back to doing it all, acting as if all is fine, as if nothing is wrong, I saw her this morning with those tears. And as hard as she wants to pretend that she can do it all, she can't, it will kill her. Her heart cannot take it, her mind cannot take it and it will not do anything but harm her if she continues on. I hope with all my heart that she can become human once again and not be afraid to show her flaws, to show her worries. I pray that she knows that, that she can be strong enough to admit her faults and carry on, not worrying about petty things. For now my heart is burdened as well, for I worry about her and how she will handle herself because I know there are more tears behind those eyes, and more fears in that heart. It will only take time to see if she can handle her flaws and use them to push herself toward a more free and subtle heart.