*i'm sorry*

i'm sorry for leaving you and i feel guilty every single day for leaving you with all you have to deal with. i have begun to think that i have been blaming the wrong person for the last year, it is not him that should be blamed, but rather myself. i was the one who left you too soon, who pushed you away, didn't trust you; i was the one to wanted to grow up too soon, who felt too sheltered when all along you just wanted a friend in me. i'm so sorry for tearing down your shelter, and when i left, i feel like i took the best of you with me, leaving only the left over pieces of you to fend for themselves. i wish that it was different, believe me, i really do. and i'm so sorry you're unhappy, i feel so guilty for that. please forgive me for leaving you, my heart aches each and every day for you and i wish things were different. i know you're having a hard time, the hardest that perhaps you've ever had, so please know that i am sorry, that it's my fault and i wish i could cure you once again. i'm sorry, please forgive me.