if you listen

in this world sometimes people surprise us; they start anew, forgive and forget, and move on. perhaps that is what i need to do, perhaps that's what i need in order to forgive myself and to move on from all the mishaps in my life. perhaps this lesson is meant for me to be learned and perhaps my heart is going to heal because of it. and i wonder all the time if the choices i've made are the right ones, have i become who i'm supposed to be? perhaps someday i'll tell you my story, perhaps you'll listen, perhaps not. but either way, my soul will be freed from all the caged and hostaged thoughts and ideas in my heart and mind. their bondage will become a freedom so sweet, and if you listen, i'll tell you my story and how i plan to heal. if you listen to me, i'll listen to you. and perhaps that in itself will heal us all, heal us both. in the shadow of my past there are things that will be forgotten, though perhaps my future will involve more. and i shall try with all my heart to move on, to forgive and forget, how ever hard that might be. it's like a disease, a relapse is possible, but in my heart i want it to be over now. i'm tired of being mad and it's the right thing to do, to move on, forgive and forget, pray about it and then put it aside in my life. so perhaps sometime you'll hear my story, i'll tell it if you listen...