imagine

Here I am awake again,
staring all around me as if you weren't leaving,
trying to imagine where i'll be tomorrow when you're gone,
and the next day and the next.

Here I am staring out at the city lights,
the night that encases me,
and the notes you left me taped on my window,
the skyline of this concrete town I love so god damn much
and the three tiny words that can make or break any
relationship but that give ours wings to fly.
"I love you" it says, just like I try to imagine
you'll be here next to me saying it.

Here I am awake early in the evening,
waiting for tomorrow to never come
so I don't have to say that goodbye I'm dreading so god damn much.
You kknow I have a hard time with goodbyes,
a hard time with saying them, living them, losing them.
I know it will be okay, but it won't be great, not fabulous, not brilliant,
just okay. But we'll make it through.

I'll just keep imagining you here with me
and the day when you'll be back here,
when we'll be together, never apart again.
It will be hard for me,
but here I am, still a live, I can do this, you can do this,
we can do this, we did it for 18 years.
But here we are, we can't do it for 2, 3 month,
we can, we really can.
I'll just imagine you're hear, that you're sitting with Yoda
right behind me on my bed, that you're in the other room,
that you're sleeping beside me once again.

Imagine life as I'm right there with you,
imagine my hand in yours, iimagine my soul in yours,
in our imaginations we'll make it through by looking
at "i love you" and the cityscape on my window,
leading me on to that day when I don't have to imagine ever again.