summer past

It's not fair, these tears aren't fair,
this lonliness isn't fair,
why on the one day when I needed her
was she not there for me?
Why did fifteen minutes away seem like a million
and why am i alone here when I need someone the most?

It's not fair that I cry these tears,
for they are all too familliar of a summer past
filled with fear and lonliness... why
do I have to go through that once again?
Why am I fated for this lonliness I feel?

It's not fair that I lay here alone,
it's not fair that so many others have it so much easier,
it's not fair that I have no one here, what did I do to
deserve this?
i'm sorry I'm not stronger than this... I'm sorry I have to be
writing this, but if I wasn't,
these tears would be for no reason.

I've stayed strong all day,
kept all those tears and thoughts inside,
but here I am, can't do it anymore,
if I can't talk to anyone about it, then I'll write
and cry wishing away a day lost to lonliness.

It's not fair and I can't get through another summer
like the last,
if this keeps up,
I don't know if I have the strength to make it through.