~"I"~

Somewhere out there is my old best friend that no matter how we see it, we have grown apart. Somewhere these days are my old group of friends, scattered around no doubt, changed I'm sure. Somewhere a few hours away is a family I used to know, still love but barely know. Somewhere out there a few more hours away is the person I fell in love with for the first time. The boy that changed my life and inspires me each and every day.

Somewhere here in between the sunset and the skyscraping towers, in between the river and the sea, the shops and the streetcars is a girl who only wants to grow into who she is. I have found out a lot about myself in the past month, more than I ever thought I could again. i thought I knew everything about me, the ins and outs, what I would do and what I wouldn't, who I wanted to be and who I didn't. I surprised myself and found out that there is so much more to me than I give myself credit for.

I....
belong here in the city,
know love can last forever
could live forever just watching the sun set
write to keep my soul alive
have lost parts of myself, big parts
have experienced so many big firsts in the past year
barely know my family anymore
miss the moments when i am totally alone
embrace the moments that inspire me
find that pictures can bring back forgotten memories
have a little wild side that I'm no longer afraid to embrace
love the big city life
miss having a close girlfriend
need to cry sometimes
have issues just like everyone else
have a passion for cooking
love looking back at old pictures
find intense inspiration from the beach
have lost friends this year
miss the relationship my mom and I used to have
have almost given up on prayer
have placed more faith in love (whether that's good or bad, who konws)
am right where I want to be
can't wait to start the rest of my life
find solace in the voice of the boy I love and laying in his ams
know forever can last