past the point of no return: loving you forever

You know we've been through a lot these past 8 months. We've both fallen in love for the first time, found out people close to us arent' always what they claim to be, we've had so many big moments together, so many moments that were firsts for the both of us and that meant the very most they ever could. We've grown into the people we are becoming, we've both grown up and dealt with issues in our families, we've dealt with issues within ourselves and issues together, working through the hard times to get to times like these today when I couldn't hardly love you anymore than I already do. I never knew that my first love would be the one that I would want to keep forever, little did I know that the boy I fell in love with at 18 would steal my heart and keep it forever. I've never felt so many emotions as I have in the past 8 months, ups and downs, happiness and feeling lost. I don't think I've grown up as much as I have in these last months of my life and I never thought that these last 8 months would be the best I've ever had out of the 19 years that I've lived but they definitley were.

We've spent every hour of every day together and never got tired of each other, we've spent time together and apart, and those times apart made me miss you even more than I already do when you're just across the room from me. And honestly when you left this summer I didn't know if I could do this. I was scared and unsure of what would happen to us, but you knew our love would hold us together, you knew that we would be okay. You knew you loved me. You knew. And now I can see better how you knew, you knew because you had trust in us. And I do too. I trust us and I trust you.

And after today, after spending this weekend with you and having such an amazing time I've realized something. I know my love for you will never die, I know that every single moment we spend together will make up for all those that we don't, when you are away. And here as you lie next to me, with no idea that I'm even writing this, I want you to know one thing... and I want the world to know it too.....
"After eight months of moments, of firsts and lasts, of love inside and out, of happiness and troubles, of laughter and tears, I love you more than I ever have before. And I know that my love will continue to grow, continue to thrive and continue to become more complete than it even is now. You are my only love, I truly know that. I want you forever, I want us forever. And even though this summer is going to be hard like it already is, I know that when you are back here always, it will be even better and it will all have been worth the pain of being away to be back together again. Happy Anniversary baby... you are the one and only love in my life and I forever do."
~Casey