Lesson learned...

Sometimes we need to just run away, sometimes love ends, sometimes friends forget you, sometimes reconnecting is better than anything. Sometimes you have no idea where you're going or how you'll get there, all you know is that you will. The last six months have really opened my already open eyes. I've realized that some friends will always be there, and others won't. I've realized that some relationships aren't meant to be and others are, and that some are strong enough to withstand the chasing after dreams, and some aren't. Some insecurities will always be there, but can we handle them or do we let them eat us up? I've learned that some moments are meant to last forever, and others are meant to disappear. I've learned sometimes when your heart hurts more than you ever though it could, desperation kicks in and we make choices that change our lives. Sometimes we need to wait, let life take its course and just.... wait. We will know when that moment comes, when we've waited long enough and life is telling us to move on. We will know.

I've learned that no matter how hard you try, you can never control another person. And no matter how hard it may be, some people are never going to change, so we must pick ourselves up and let them be. I've learned that families change, parents move away, siblings grow up and that sometimes, family does hurt you, although they might not realize all the wrong they have done. I've learned that family, the people that raised you, may change, but somehow as we get older, we become more than just a daughter, we become a friend and more than just a sister, we become more, something stronger than blood. I've learned that although things happen and time changes things, we must accept it as life. I've learned that losing a pet really does shake you to your core and brings back all the memories of when we were young and life seemed endless.

I've realized that some of us need validation in commitment, others, like myself, need independence. I've learned that although many people may never understand my decisions, it doesn't really matter, because in my heart I know it's what's best for me. I've learned that some are blinded by who they love and where they live, some are ignorant of what life really is and that some don't care if they are ignorant, naive and wrong. I've learned that misconception is such a strong emotion and that people are not willing to open up their eyes and experience something different than we know.

I've learned that sometimes love dies and two people must find a new way of life. I've learned that sometimes, the choices we make in haste, come back to tear us apart and the choices that perhaps we're pushed into, can truly make or break our lives. I've learned that small towns are small towns and big cities are big cities and they do not mix. I've learned that some are meant for one and others are meant for the other. I've learned that time spent with those we love is the most important thing of all. And that at the end of the day, even if you disagree with everyone you encountered on your path, if you have one person that understands you and your choices when you go home, that's the most beautiful part of life.