missing you tonight...

I sit here alone tonight on this island, back in this apartment that I should love so much, watching planes fly across the night sky headed towards the home that I would like to be at. And as I look down at my finger, at that beautiful custom made ring, it makes me smile because I know that someone out there tonight, you are. And I'm not alone, you're with me always. This ring means so much to me and it means more and more each day that we're apart and each day that we're together. I never was the girl that her whole wedding planned out or that had been dreaming of this my whole life, and I was totally shocked when you proposed, and maybe a little fearful of what we were getting into. But now, I've realized whole heartedly, I was already committed, I was already with you and in my heart, I was already married to you, maybe not legally, but emotionally I was already there, already in that position. I knew along time ago that I would end up with you, it just took me a few swerves in different directions to realize our path, our destination.

So tonight my love, tonight and for the rest of our lives, I will always be yours, I will always have you in my thoughts and even when you aren't here beside me, you'll be with me, always. I can't wait for these months to fly by, for me to be home with you, curled up in our little apartment, living the life we love. I love you and every time I look down at this beautiful ring, I suddenly realize the meaning of it, the eternity of it, the symbolism of it. I understand the moments that it captures, the future it holds. And I want all of that with you, I want to see where I road leads and I'm so excited for the journey.

Missing you tonight...