I'm feeling so restless, so ready to go home, so ready to move on with my life and I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I've been realizing ever so much lately, that I really do want to get married, that I really do want that moment when I promise my life, that I do want to wear that white dress. I think what makes me so apprehensive is that I don't want how I live my life to have to change. I don't want us to change, I don't want marriage to pull us apart, I don't want it to be a traditional marriage or a traditional life that comes next, I want it to be just us, to make it up as we go along. I want to be able to make up my own rules, to make it how we want it to be.
I've been feeling very alone and I just miss home, I miss the comfort of my own apartment, the city I love, the friends, the family that I miss. My time here has run its course and it's a new era in my life, yet again. It's another change, but this time, going back home instead of away from it. I need the Saturday afternoon naps on the couch, watching movies at night, walks in the Pearl, gelato, oh how I miss gelato. I need the rain, the fall, the bare trees in the winter. I just can't wait for that day when I board that plane, knowing I'm done, knowing I'm home.
1 comment:
I can tell you - it won't change. We won't be a traditional couple - we will just be us. We make our own rules. I love you. I miss you - and gelato misses you too ;-)
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