...waiting for me...

We all get hurt in different ways and it takes longer for some to recover than others. But today as I started to get stuff together for this new chapter of my life, I realized that I am done with the hurt and frustrations of this summer. And while I have been through a lot this summer, I've cried a lot, been scared to move on, I now have realized that there is nothing to be scared of. I saw today that there is so much out there for me, so much that I never even knew was there or that I might enjoy or come to love. But honestly, I still am having a harder time getting over the recent fight I had with my dad, and I haven't spoken to him since. Though I want to see his point, I fail to see the truth in what he said to me. And that fight hurt me deeply, the things that he said to me, that he assumed about me, and the fact that he doesn't seem to know much about who I truly am really upset me and I am having a hard time getting over that and moving on. Though all else that this summer has handed me, things that have hurt me, that have been tough and things that brought tears to my eyes, I am finding it easier to move on. I was hurt, but I'm done with feelings, with distance from those I wish I was closer to, and all those things that have made me cry this summer. Those are the things that I am moving on from, that today showed me there is so much out there for me and there is no point in waiting around for these things to come to me. I have decided that I am stronger than I thought I was, and I will not let others dictate what my life turns out to be; I will not wait for things that I only thought will complete me. So I'm done with many things that I feel and I wish I could get over what my dad said to me, but for now I can't. However, all the rest of the crap of this summer, the hurt, the tears, they're done with, over,and I'm done with them as well. Goodbye to those summer feelings, I thought those were what was going to complete me, but I have only just realized that I can complete myself and I have a whole new life waiting for me.