take me or leave me part 1

this is me, who i am, who i want to be, what i want, who i will become and how i came to find myself... take me or leave me, but this is me....
1. I believe that faith in something higher can save a life
2. Pictures of friends of family can soothe lonliness
3. I have to be alone sometimes, that's just how i am
4. don't bother me when I'm writing, it messes up my thought process
5. I love writing possibly more than anything else
6. I could live on diet coke
7. Watching the OC makes me smile
8. Sunsets are one of the favorite things in the world
9. I fall head over heels for a guy who can sing to me
10. I am impatient at times, well ok a lot of times
11. Music soothes me; all different kinds
12. I love to read, curled up by the pool, under an umbrella
13. I have way too many purses, and way way too many shoes!
14. I am not as big of shopper as everything thinks, I am honestly not
15. I have pretended to be things I'm not to please other people
16. I have done things that I wish I hadn't (j)
17. I hate being disorganized, though sometimes it is refreshing
18. I have danced on a rooftop
19. I've seen fabulous places all over the world
20. I do consider Saudi Arabia and muslim a huge part of me
21. I can count to ten in Arabic
22. I love football games, even in the cold or the rain
23. I love watching my brother play football and basketball
24. I am at complete peace when I'm with just my mom
25. I have to fall asleep with the tv on
26. black is my favorite color
27. when I paint my nails black, it means I'm either annoyed, angry, or feeling a little punk rockish
28. the color of my nails can tell you a lot about my mood
29. I am totally addicted to mentholatum and altoids
30. little kids running everywhere drives me crazy
31. I think I want to adopt kids when I have a family
32. I am all for public schools, rather than private which is ironic considering my family background
33. I love basketball, I could play all the time
34. I am confident in myself, though insecure about some things
35. I love reading magazines
36. I call my aunt when I am upset and she calms me down
37. I am always cold
38. I love black and white photos
39. Emily Dickinson is my favorite poet
40. I am very open minded, I hate racism or ethnic comments
41. I am accepting of people
42. I have had many "friends" that weren't really "friends" at all
43. I LOVE convertibles
44. I don't really like to talk on the phone
45. When I don't talk a lot, I'm thinking
46. in the end, all I want is to marry someone that I can talk to for hours, to tell him anything, someone that loves me unconditionally and someone I can laugh with about anything
47. I hate vulgar things
48. I worry about a lot of people all the time
49. I love to look at buildings around me, look at the detailing and the design
50. I enjoy driving long distances, it gives me a ton of time to think
51. I would do anything for my brother
52. I swear, I am always in the middle of EVERYTHING!
53. If you need someone to talk to, I'm a very good listener
54. I have talked on the phone for hours trying to solve people's problems... haha Tori!
55. I don't believe that age is a huge factor in relationships or friendships... well ok not a huge age difference
56. I'm really into brown right now
57. When I'm really angry, I won't say anything
58. I'm afraid of being hurt
59. I'm totally afriad of goodbyes, but totally immune to them at the same time
60. I feel like I missed out on a lot of stuff that my friends from Saudi got to do
61. I blame a lot on my dad
62. I am really close with my grandma, and love her company, we have such great conversations
63. I have 4 bedrooms at the moment
64. I have started an "awkward" movement with my cousins friends, and I say it all the time!
65. I don't drink coffee anymore, but I love a blended chai
66. I have suddenly acquired a great liking of hats, I love my yankees one!
67. Under Armor really is amazing
68. I could sit and write for hours, literally
69. I only like dark chocolate
70. my hair has been red, dark dark brown, and blonde
71. People always think my aunt is my mom cuz we look so much alike
72. People have thought me and my brother are twins
73. I am always thought to be older than I am
74. I enjoy going to mass
75. I love running, especially at sunset
76. I like talking to my mom, though some things I could never tell her
77. I feel insignificant at times
78. I have a lot of ambitions
79. I love historical fiction and I love going to Borders and browsing for hours
80. I am fascinated with the Venician courtesans... watch 'Dangerous Beauty'
81. I love learning about history
82. I like languages, I find them extremely intriguing
83. I could live in my Keds
84. Dove ice cream is amazing!
85. I love rasberries
86. I ALWAYS wear earrings
87. I love orchids
88. I have had a creepy internet stalker.. thank god that's over with
89. ipods are the most amazing thing ever
90. i like the city, but i like smaller towns too
91. i love old houses
92. i really like to cook and i watch the cooking channel
93. i love my height
94. i have a thing for tall guys, i always pick them out right away
95. I make my mom cd's all the time with random memorable names : haha milk and eggs mix
96. I always go cd and dvd shopping with my brother, he's got good taste in both too
97. My favorite names are Isabelle and Aden
98. my lucky numbers are 8 and 15
99. i would like someday to have someone know everything about me
100. I have a lot of secrets... secrets that people wouldn't think I'd keep