it's been a while...

it has been a while since i've been able to sit down and write, since words have been able to fill this page and since my mind has had the sensation of speaking my mind, expressing my fears, and capturing my very heart in those letters. and tonight, here sipping hot cocoa, in a dark room where candles burn; where music is playing in the background and i am writing, nothing could be better, nothing could fill my heart with more brilliance. and what makes it even better is looking across the room and seeing you sitting at that table sipping that same hot cocoa that soothes my soul, watching you and meeting your eyes. and right now, i don't know how there could be anything better in the world; for even though the last week has been cruel and eventful, you have pulled me through. you are always in my heart and just by meeting your eyes and exchanging a quick smile, i know that i can always trust you.