over

I hurt all over, my mind, my heart, my body. I'm feeling alone, lost and left over. I'm not sure why or what has caused this but here I am, sitting in this city I love so much alone, hurt and lost. no one here, no one even thinking of me, caring about what i'm doing while everyone else is off doing the things they like, spending time with friends, family. i'm left here.

so often in the last few weeks i've been picked over, looked over while others get my time from me. looked over as if i'm not here and it seems like everyday i'm alone, everyone else is with their friends, their girlfriends, their husbands and sons, their sisters, their brothers, thier mothers and fathers. i'm not. i'm here every day alone, doing it on my own. i'm here waiting, and i'm tired of waiting. i just want it to be over, i'm tired of it being this way. i'm tired of the uncertainty, i'm tired of living out of a suitcase and wating for you to call, i'm tired of sitting in a silent room and not even having the energy to turn on the tv. i'm tired of talking on the phone, i'm tired of acting all happy all the time when most of the time i just want you here. i'm tired of the evenings alone, wanting to go out to eat so bad but no one to go with. i'm tired of the anxiety.

i'm tired of this. i just want it to be friday and for it to be over.