You know the past few days have been try..ng, the past few weeks actually have been incredibly emotional and all in all, the past few months have been a bit rough. But I've learned one thing through it all, I can at least bring up certain things and discuss them like an adult with the people that I care about. And while I may not understand the reasons behind the answers I get, while I may not agree with them or accept them as my own beliefs, I have to learn that what I do with my life does affect other people, regardless if I want them to or not.
The decision I was making, in the end, hurt too many people in the process and perhaps came upon that big of a choice too fast, but I found out that I had the strength and the support to show me the way I ended up choosing. For now, I will go on the way it is, for now I will be the good daughter, the good child, for now I will do as I am wanted to do, and wait, because what's another six months or a year in the span of a lifetime?
And it's a lifetime I can't wait to start living, but in the span of it all, I can wait.
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Isn't that a great feeling, learning that you are an adult and it isn't such a HUGE life-altering deal to talk to your parents about such things? I felt really empowered by it when it happened to me.
like you said....i'm planning on spending my life with you...what are six months during that lifetime. It doesn't change anything about who we are and what we feel about each other on a emotional and spiritual level...all it does is effect our physical being.....i love you and deep inside I will always love you my heart is yours...
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