Thousands of Tiny Lights

Sometimes our lives present themselves to us in meandering paths, in journeys that we must take in order to really realize what we're meant to be. I've always been the girl that didn't necessarily believe in getting married, that didn't ever want to really settle down, that thought I could handle the world on my own. And then a moment came, a moment as I sat alone in a hotel room in Seoul, a moment that finally everything clicked in to place in my mind, a moment when I knew that all that really mattered was to be with him, a moment when I finally realized that I want to someday walk down that aisle and see him at the other end. And in that moment, it was all so clear, so right, when so much else in my life was going wrong. And in those few thoughts, in at moment of clarity, suddenly I had this hope to hold on to and every doubt I've ever had was lifted, and I knew at once that he is the only one that I want to be with, that he is the only one that understands me totally, the one that I want all my dreams to come true with. He is the one that makes me smile and the voice that lifts my mood. He is the one that I could lay next to forever, and the one that I would be willing to give it all up for.

And sometimes when moments like that approach us, they approach us at times in our lives when we need it the most. And so as this year drags on and I am encountering some very difficult days, I have that piece of hope in my mind, that piece of hope that I know will come. And while it may not happen right away, I know that it will. I know that it will happen, that I will walk down the aisle at sunset, with thousands of tiny lights over head, with that perfect song playing, with everyone I love there to support me, and I will look into his eyes and say those two little words that mean forever. And I know that when that day comes we will look back on everything we've been through and know that the decision is true, that's it's pure and that everything we went through was for a reason.

So as I look ahead, even through this is going to be a very long trek to get back home to him, I know that it will all work out somehow and that whatever is meant to be will be.