Stretch

I think that my life has turned the corners that it has in order to make me stronger, smarter and more aware. And as I look around, I really enjoy the career I have chosen, and I really enjoy my close family, however crazy we might be, however many dramas we encounter, however many stories can be told about us, I love every minute of it because I love them. I really enjoy where I am in my life right now, and I enjoy my daily life, even though I feel stretched thin most of the time. I enjoy sitting at my desk and being able to really work, to get things done and know that as I accomplish something, a project is moving forward in a good direction. I enjoy knowing that my decisions really are taken in to account, and that I am entrusted with huge projects, that I am given the responsibilities that I have been given.

Though on the other hand, I really can't wait to be home in my apartment full time, to be able to walk the streets of my city, to see the seasons change, to have lunches with friends and dinners out. I can't wait to feel settled, to feel home, to feel good again. It's going to be yet another transition in my life, another goodbye to the life I've built here, to my parents, to my colleagues, to my acquaintances. This has been a year of experiences for me that I wouldn't have gotten anywhere else and when I look back, I wouldn't take anything back or trade any moment of it. There have been extreme highs and lows, and I have found out a lot about myself, about who I am and who I'm not. I have stood up to controversy and I have stood up for myself. I have fought for what I think is right and will only continue to do so in the future. I have given myself a name and I have placed myself in a footing with men that are twice my age, sitting at the same conference table as them, giving them my advice. This change on one hand will be what I've always hoped would happen eventually, but it's also going to be giving up a lot of what I love about my job. It's going to be a lot of learning again, learning how to transition to this new life.

I feel so stretched thin as it is right now, here's hoping that this won't stretch me any thinner.