who knows...

When I look out my window today, somehow I feel a little bit homesick. It's weird and I don't know why, but for the first time in a long time, I kind of wish for life to not be so busy, to enjoy my time and not worry about what time I have to go home, when I have class, what's due and all the crap I need to get done. There comes a point where you just get tired of it and when everything is just chaos. And the only time in my week that is never rushed or chaotic is the time I spend with you, the moments we have together, the hours we spend either here or there, driving or walking around. And they are the best moments in my life, they are what keeps me going, they are what makes me look forward to each and every day. With you I never feel lost, never homesick, never chaotic, and I feel safe. My days are long without you and right now, I feel a little bit homesick but not for my home, not for anything in particular.... well maybe for my mom, I miss her lately. But who knows, I guess I have lost my touch, I can't write exactly what I feel right now... and that scares me... what is going on with me?