i'm scared

Tonight as I sat on the phone again for an hour with Alyssa, a girl who I miss so much, I realized how much she means to me, how much our relationship means to me. She has always helped me out, listened and tried to help. Though she's been through rough patches, she always finds her feet again and I applaud her for that. But talking to her, she helped me realize something. I finally see that what I've been feeling inside is not from those around me, those closest to me, it's coming from inside of myself. I'm scared, I'm apprehensive, and I'm pressuring myself without even realizing it. I've put the weight on my shoulders unwillingly and it seems that my fears have started to reside in something new. But the more I think about it, I should not be afraid, I don't need to be scared. I have no reason to be, I have you. So I will try to solve my fears, my apprehensions, my insecurities, because I know that with you it will all be alright, we'll overcome any obstacles in our way, holding your hand the whole way through.